Friday, February 02, 2007

34 Years... a serious post




Today I am 34.

This is the same age that my mother was when she died.
How different our lives are...
When she was 34, she had a husband, a house, and 3 young kids.
As I turn 34, I have a partner, an apartment, and 3 cats.
I just can't imagine having 3 kids at this time. Not that I don't want children, but I look at my life today, and I see our lives as being polar opposites. I am in my 2nd and still developing career. She was a stay at home mom.

And then she died.

I don't remember that night, although I can picture it after being told the story so many times.
What I wouldn't give to be able to meet her. My father did remarry, and my mom (technically step-mom) is wonderful... this post isn't meant to imply anything like that.
I just wish I could sit with my biological mom over coffee, tell her about my life, learn about what hers was like... what did she like? what were her hopes and dreams? is she proud of me? How do I take after her?
She would be 65 this year...
When I see her in pictures, her 34 looks older than my 34.
Tonight in the shower, as I listened to my shower radio, her song came on.
It was one in a string of many odd things that have happened today.
Gordon Lightfoot - If you could read my mind.
Maybe she was letting me know she was with me to celebrate my birthday.
Maybe just coincidence... there is a full moon after all...